Fruit exists, and people are taught that it doesn't.

Our fruit picking has shown me that there is no problem of getting food in this world.

The problem lies in knowledge of how to grow, where to find/forage, how to store food, and even, how to eat the food.  Our society does not value enough the food available and there is an agenda to stop people from learning that they have their own power over their survival.

what started me...
feeling like I am in a relationship for myself
I don't need to remember the past
Forget it.
the past doesn't exist now
I can be whatever I want to be.

The things about industrial culture which need to be unraveled in order to become naturally human

I recommend watching these three films:
Surviving Progress
Idiocracy
God Bless America

These films bring up important issues growing in our society today which have the power of breaking us down as a species, or teaching us lessons of how to create a better world.

Some themes that need to be addressed and unraveled/recreated in our society:

natural, agrarian communities provides ample opportunity for social interaction to become a necessity and extension of daily life
whereas
industrial society can isolate and all of a sudden social skills are not used
social interaction becomes a commodity for assisting industrial progress.  No wonder people become isolated and seek out interaction to fulfill their own needs.  industrial society aggravates selfish aims for connecting as you can't live on your own in a natural way.

I am often drawn to strong personalities but it becomes too external and when I started talking to him it became apparent that I wasn't attracted to him.  How his certain personality was shaped by his struggles, and I saw how wrapped up he was.  Not that I don't have issues, but his
flavor
 of his specific issues or internal life didn't appeal to me.
people get wrapped up in their own family
his internal life was wrapped up in family and glamour expectations from friends
I think it would be preferable for people who have money to have things happen in their lives so that naturally their illusions can be broken down, but when things go well for them, it's like a castle surrouding them and they should go out of their way to put themselves in uncomfortable situations to develop compassion.

the idea that you can do good for the world is a side effect of living a priveleged life.
I feel like I am a realistic person
I think I'm trying to see it in myself where I also feel like I can help the world
I appreciate having people who can see

Wheel Of Fortune: An Ecocentric View

Being that I am leaving tomorrow morning for California and my grandparents are home, I just watched Wheel Of Fortune with them to try and spend time with them in the way that they like to spend their time. I always feel like we could do something else to connect with each other better... Besides that point, while watching the show, I noticed that the point of the show is to get money from an external source with the belief that this money will make you instantly happier- possible for the poor, but probably will wear off for the middle class.. Second, when people win things, trips to exotic places are usually highlighted as special. Hah, and yet, I know I am traveling to CA tomorrow for an intensive on permaculture. At least I am traveling "away" for the purpose to learn something that will eventually help the environment. The problem with WOF is that the trips are usually highlighted as "getaways", meaning your life is better when you leave your current place. This attitude reinforces the idea that nature is not worthwhile in your local communities. Third, TV in general is awful. :)

The Art Of Noticing

This past week, I've been choosing to see my hometown as a place of nature, rather than a "town" with nature around it.  As I walk along the river, I notice the trees and limestone bluff, and how much larger they are from any building that has been built downtown. 

I have also been choosing to pay attention to how connected my body is to nature; I notice that I am affected by my quality of air that I breather, how much I go outside, whether or not there are pesticides underneath my bare feet that go up into my skin, the amount of time I spend driving or walking, ...

Today

I decided while that I see a lot of my classmates studying abroad, and I may be a little jealous that they get to see cool places and eat new foods, I value that I am staying in one place and taking the time to do what I want to do right now. And, while traveling is fun and can make you appreciate home more, it would feel stressful. I also do not envy culture shock.

Today

I decided to not listen to my iPod, because if I have to listen to music in order to "get through" something, that means that I'm trying to kill time, and that what I'm trying to avoid isn't worth my time. I would rather not have to multi-task and enjoy whatever I am doing. So, if I don't enjoy it, I will just change my activity.